Mood-less

i've just found out that i've recently becomin more "mood-less" for things i used to have passion for.

i'm being mood-less to:

1. study for exams - which i did do while mq was around my place..
2. blog - i find it rather.. not so liberating anymore..
3. listen to music n songs - i'm sad i couldn't find my Ono Lisa CD (pirated)
4. clean up my room - everythin's lyin around everywhere.. altho i make less of a mess these days
5. update my laptop - it's running on pentium 3, n on msn 6 pt somethin.. not msn 7
6. talk to mum - she called, n i felt rather distant.. n more like huggin her..
7. keep myself from eatin too much - i overate today, n i'm still stuffed at 3:35am (now) when i last ate, had my choc cake n coffee at 11+pm, didn't even finish.
8. excercise - oh, when do i ever??
9. read - bought books dat i haven't touched, maybe becoz it's exam season? i haven't even started on Harry Potter (yeah, i know i might be a bit old for this) n the 6th book is due out in mid july!
10. sleep - sometimes i'm awake most of the night n can't get to sleep at all
11. wake up - when i do fall asleep, i don't wanna wake up..
12. get online - when i do, i don't get off! n i'm quite constantly on blogs n ebay..
13. shop - promised i won't go shoppin til exam's finished, but i did buy things off ebay..
14. think about moving - yes, i'm thinkin of movin AGAIN.. 5-bedroom, $575/week, South Yarra? do i really have to move together with them?
15. think about problems -

• wat will happen when my parents come over?
• will they ask me to give up sony n spencer?
• do i really have to start work soon after i finish exams?
• will i get a holiday 1st?
• would i have to get a job in the accounting field

16. think about my parents' problems -

• will mz be able to support herself financially in melbourne?
• will mz come back to KL anytime soon permanently?
• will mz be happy with jacke?
• is mq happy with her studies n work?
• is mq on talkin terms with candy already?
• is wz doin well in his exams?
• is wz happy with his new place?
• wat do the kids want us to bring to melbourne in july?
• do they need any more finances from us as to now?
• how would we be able to find time for other things like work n leisure?
• is the company doin okay in its current financial situation?
• where will we find good employees?

the list is endless. i was once told by a chinese doctor dat i think a lot.. a bit too much kind of a lot. i know dat.. n i accept dat.. i'm not moulding myself into dat kind of person, but i am trying to be more productive with my thinking too much..

wat is currently in my mind now: tax law, fringe benefit tax, capital gains tax, myers case, support tutorial, section 6-5... sports n the law, WADA code, athletes, compensation for injury, restraint of trade.......

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*B*L*i*N*k*

with a blink of an eye, it's june already.. i can't help but think.. we blink so many zillion times a day.. n yet, with a blink of an eye, time passes so fast.. my exams shall come forth soon, n i shan't be ambushed.. wat the.. i just don't want to be unprepared for the exams.. n it's been.. quite devastating, knowin dat there are cases i have to read up n do summaries on.. cases with who knows how many 10s of pages.. with no obvious keypoints.. i just hope i'll bring enough info in to the exam hall n know where to search for wat i want. it'll be better if the answers just pop right at me.. yeah right, dream on..

tmr's monday, n i should be startin my sport n the law revision. this subject is.. still okay.. except dat i haven't gone thru the WADA (the World Anti-Doping Agency code) to find out how the drug testing procedures goes n the impacts of the process on the athletes n the sports industry or watever. it's a long long long way to go before i finish. jacke went to mass today at the St Patrick's cathedral today while i sat (not so cosily) at Starbucks in Lygon Street, Carlton. i was sharin a small round table with a lady with her metallic pink mini-ipod on the table n her novel. i didn't even try to catch wat she was reading.. even though i know i have some 1.5 hours to sit there. with my grande caramel macchiato, i sat reading The Sunday Age (which costs $0.50 with the drink), just a couple of articles before i start revision.. i brought my notes along, fortunately. n as i revised, i started to praise myself for being so "hardworkin", i managed to finish my (not-so-complete) lecture notes (up til topic 6). it was satisfying u know, except for my tummy, as jacke n i just had thai food before my coffee session at starbucks. i can tell u, next time u're very full, don't get a grande sized drink... u'll bloat up like a hot air balloon..

anyway, i made a new net friend today.. she's Carmen from Madrid, Spain. she's only 16 years old n was goin to a French school. she said she wants to study economics n political science when she's in uni. somethin like dat.. but she's really nice.. n she's goin to this Shakira concert (she's probably at it now) n goin partying with her frenz tmr! PLUS, she's got an exam on tuesday n she hadn't started revising for today.. whoa! she assured me dat she was a responsible girl (becoz she also told me they drink alcohol since 13!!) and dat i would have a lot of fun if i were to visit spain. all the ppl there are beautiful, friendly n sociable.. aw.. n she even told me i wasn't old.. :P (*shucks*) hehe well, anyway, when i talk to her again, i'm gonna get her to teach me spanish, french n maybe italian.. well, i'll soak as much as i can.. :D she speaks fluent spanish n french, with some italian n of course english! i hope my exam status won't put us apart for too long... :)

anyway (again!), this is a song she says is quite popular in Spain now, n the band - Zapatillas is from her town Madrid.. :) Zapatillas - El Canto Del Loco... which means "the song of the crazy". a lil loud n noisy for me, but those of u who enjoy a lil of pop rock might like it.. enjoy.. :D

pictures hehe

forgot to post my pictures.. here they are.. my PJ cute ler?


yeah, i know i look very shagged, but it is the exam season.. don't forget.. i love my PJs.. :)

in the midst of being hardworkin..

i'm under enormous amount of stress here.. we've got into kinda like.. a misunderstanding with albert, which makes everybody.. so tensed.. i don't like it.. jacke doesn't like it either.. biggest problem? i've gotten too close to albert.. jacke doesn't realize, dat i really love him so so so much, i can't bear to lose him, to make him angry at me.. albert n april, ah ping, everybody knows dat i'm like so super sticky to jacke.. dat i wouldn't go anywhere with jacke.. dat i'm so crazy over him.. y doesn't he know dat? y can't he see dat? i want jacke to be in every part of my life, to be able to get to know my frenz, to be frenz with them, to be close with them as well.. i don't want anythin bad to come in between us.. i love him just so so so much..