Sunday, November 28, 2004

Lai Min & co in Melbourne!

Lai Min, bf Kwang Zhen, sis Lai Kuan n her bf Boon Chun are in melbourne for a few days. they're all studyin in uni of queensland, n graduating end of the semester, how happy! yesterday at around 4pm, jacke suggested we bring them to Phillip Island to see penguins, n so we did! the penguin watch is normally during sunset, when they have come back from a day's fishing, back to their burrows to feeed their children (if any), n their partners dat are takin care of the children. this is my 2nd trip to the penguin parade, n i would say, it is worth the money! i paid $16 for the ticket (under student concession), n i saw a lot more penguins than i did the 1st time! n this is kinda the mating season when they would have kids, usually 2 eggs, then either one or both will hatch. i got to see little furry penguins in the burrows, n they were so so so cute.. imagine the adult being the size of... okay, the height of a 1.25litre soft drink bottle? so the youngs were smaller, super cute! then we got to see more about 100++ penguins comin up from the shore n into their burrows (Lai Kuan was counting them). it was quite close range, at times within reach. but of course for conservation purposes, we're not allowed to touch them.. keke then after the watch, we took some very nice pictures, bought some, actually. we stood in front of this bright green background, n pretended dat we were takin pictures with penguins! of course they were fake, n we couldn't see them. only the photographer could see them in her computer screen. it turned out pretty good, unfortunately jacke wasn't in the picture. he said he had been there already n wouldn't pay to go in again.. huei chyn, peik ai n shuyi were there also.. they ended up sittin in the car with jacke tellin them stories about how we met bla bla bla.

today we went to sovereign hills in ballarat. it's a mining-town-cum-museum-concepted tourist attraction. this would be my 3rd trip there, n i'm still wonderin y i would fork out $22 to go in n see the same things over n over. but it was different, this is the 1st time i went with jacke.. have to go mar.. couple wat.. :D bought some sweets- rainbow mixed, acid drops n eucalyptus flavoured (for my bro). they're sweets made with the old ways, maybe with some new ingredients, but they're hand-made, n really nice. Lai Min n co did get me n jacke a 'leather' book mark each with our names on it. it's really cool, n really pretty! thx u guyz!!

tmr we'll be drivin up to the GREAT OCEAN ROAD to see the 12 Apostles. i've been there once with a whole group already, but this would be with jacke.. hehe, again.. couple mar!! it would be a long drive.. jacke did all the drivin up til now.. we've rented a 7 seater Kia Carnival.. it's so spacious n comfy.. everyone just slept thru the journey. it was quite quiet, considerin dat the car was big, everyone was further apart.. anyway, hopefully everythin will be fine n smooth sailin.. of course it will be fun as well!! yay, trips! n more money to spend.. sigh..

thx for everyone's concern about my 2 dogs sony n spencer.. i've found a pet-carer who would take care of them when i'm gone. it costs $20 a day for both dogs, she comes to my place to feed them, clean them n walk them. it's quite reasonable, altho i would still have to provide all food n toys n necessary things. i hope the bill doesn't come up to a stage where i can't afford it.. i'm kinda dry nowadays, so i think i will use the money my frenz still owe me to pay the pet-carer. hopefully when i go back to KL, i would be able to collect my money IN FULL. the service will start 7th dec n throughout til feb when i come back, n occasionally when my sis comes to my house during january weekends, i won't need the pet-carer's service. so dat would be at least $1k, sigh.. anyone wants to contribute? i should set up a sony n spencer fund.. hehe okay, i should go.. almost 3am, should wake up 6.. sigh

wish me a fun-filled day!

Thursday, November 25, 2004

damn laws on privacy

here's my case, in 2001, my 1st year of uni, i signed a contract for a mobile phone under my then bf's name, which i will only name him R, at this point of time. shit, i'm already havin a headache.. we have agreed on this 28 month plan, which ends today, dat i will pay all bills by direct debit, and all letters n bills will be sent to my place. i will be the sole user of the number, n i keep all the contracts. 28 months ago, i stayed in Burwood, n has since then moved to Hawthorn East, Box Hill, then Box Hill again. i couldn't change any details of the contract at all since i'm not the bloody account holder, so i had to call R to change them for me. u see, R was only my bf for less than 2 months, n i haven't been talkin to him much since we broke up. so, imagine the agony of havin to call him to change details. this i have attempted to avoid, thus after askin R to change the Burwood address to the H.East address, which he did reluctantly, i didn't ask him to change any more addresses, so as to save effort n trouble. i had the bills direct debitted to my bank account anyway, i don't need the bills.. a month ago, a lady from the phone company called me n asked for feedback on the service provided. we went on n on with the account holder status n she adviced me of wat the best deals i should go for, for my own interest. bla bla bla, i didn't realize until today, dat it is already the last day of my account service n try to make arrangements. i called them regarding the transfer status, n they said they couldn't do it for me, these are wat they told me today:
  • becoz i'm not an Australian citizen, or have a permanenet residency status, i should have a job.
  • becoz i'm not employed, n do not fulfil the above criteria, i have to pay a $200 bond, returnable at the end of my contract (which is today, duh)
  • becoz i'm not an Australian citizen, or have a permanent residency status, they need me to fax a copy of my passport n visa to them for verification purposes.
  • becoz my visa is expiring in march 2005, they are not approving the transfer from R's name to mine, even tho the plan is expiring today. they will not be able to do the transfer (which costs $27.50, btw) until i have renewed my visa, which is ridiculous..
  • oh, n for the $200, if my transfer was to be approved, i have to send them the $200 n get it back at the end of the contract anyway.. it's stupid.

thus, i have decided to hang up the phone, becoz there is nothin i can do anyway, so much for payin thousands over the 27 months. altho i must say a big thankyou to Mitch on the other line who talked to me nicely n did make the effort to explain everythin to me. i will no longer use this number adter it has expired, which i dunno exactly when becoz i just called R to have him call the phone company to disconnect the line. after dat, i will be using jacke's number, almost the same company tho. oh, n i can never understand y i couldn't sign the contract under my name in the 1st place? jacke's not an australian citizen, nor a permanent resident, or employed. both our visas were for 3 years.. anythin else? i dunno, it's just plain stupid. those of u who wants my number, plz contact me here, or in msn. thx for readin my rambling.. i hate payin those bills.. they never go less than 100 each month, n considerin dat i've once paid $3000 over 3 months, they should have put me on a VVVVIP status.

Monday, November 22, 2004


Dan's faithful sis n companion - Tess.. Posted by Hello

my happy dad n sis with the late Dan of Aalburg.. Posted by Hello

sony during winter, 'shuai4' hor? Posted by Hello

Saturday, November 20, 2004

being a good citizen? or just bitchin? + PAINball

on friday night, i couldn't sleep. the tavern just opposite my house was havin a function, just like any other friday or saturday night. i have expected it to last til at least 2am, which doesn't really piss me off. i went for paintball today, which eventually became painball.. i'll tell u about dat later. okay, at about 2am, the music in the reception stopped, but the talkin, laughin n screaming were still heard outside. when they close the tavern for the day, everything moves outwards, which sucked coz i live opposite. without evesdropping, u will be able to hear their conversations, sounds close enough? around 2:30am, jacke n i tried to go to bed, but only to hear a big coach pressing its honks once every minute for passengers to get in it. it was terrible.. i wouldn't have really mind for any other saturday morn, but on my paintball saturday morn? when i have to wake up at 4am to get ready n meet my sis plus her frenz in the city? gosh.. ppl like those have no brains, n no courtesy. it was 2:30am for god's sake, HONK? i peeped out of the window to look at those lousy ppl with no courtesy, n for the next 2 minutes, the coach left. ah.. finally some peace n quiet.. noperz, it didn't happen. being a light-sleeper i was, especially when i'm not tired, i couldn't sleep becoz i heard large council vehicles and cars passing by downstairs. those large council vehicles are like garbage trucks, running pass the street not stoppin for garbage n all. so frankly, i dunno wat use it is exactly for. anyway, i couldn't sleep.. at about 3:15am, an alarm went off. it was loud, comin from over the street. jacke n i couldn't really make it whether it was from a car or from the tavern itself, coz i thought it would be crazy to break into the tavern when just half an hour ago a party was goin on in there.. we then knew dat we wouldn't be gettin any sleep tonight, despite havin to drive 2 to 3 hours all the way up to NSW state to play paintball. we waited for a couple of minutes then decided to make a police report. i called n asked for the police, told them dat there was an alarm, sounded like a car's, askin them to have a look at it. guess wat the police woman told me? "i'm sorry, we don't attend to car alarms.." wow, they must be REALLY BUSY to even look at a suspected car theft or somethin goin wrong. aren't they supposed to help maintain public safety and assist the public in dealing with all sorts of things? uhm.. or should i call the fire brigade instead? i hung up the phone, frustrated dat nothin could be done. i told jacke to call the police, again, so dat multiple reports are made n maybe the police could do somethin about it.. i may be lucky to be awake, but wat about those poor ppl who work their butts off from monday til friday, tryin to get a good friday night's sleep but failed becoz some alarm went off?? jacke called, but this time he told the police dat the tavern opposite our place had the alarm go off. we couldn't see anythin as it was dark, no movements, no suspicious shadows, nothin.. he left his name n number, n was told dat they will send someone over. 15 minutes passed, the alarm is still loud n clear, it stopped goin twice for about 2 secs, then came back on again. this time, we heard another sound, somethin like someone tryin to break the glass window. the window didn't just break like how the movies showed, the person tried several times, only breaking the glass maybe after the 5th attempt. it was a break in!!! it was real, our 1st witness to a crime.. is it considered a crime?? even tho we only heard things but didn't see anythin? it was so 'gan cheong'.. we were partly excited n partly scared! after another few minutes, with no police in sight, we saw a tall guy with little hair (not balding, just little like those u needn't comb) walkin down the stairs of the tavern n towards station street. he was tall, slim n fit, turning his back to the tavern only once after he was about 20 steps away. he was cool n calm, walkin slowly n steadily.. goodness, he is so collected.. we couldn't make out wat he was wearing or how he looked like, it was too dark. but i'm quite sure he doesn't have a jacket or a sweater on, maybe just a long sleeved shirt. u know how girls are quite observant in these things, moreover a criminal's physique n clothing. it's just a natural click in the mind, jottin down instantly watever the person is like n not addin any unwanted details. i tell u guyz, the part where the person walked down the stairs in a jolly manner kept playin in my mind the whole day.. i suggested dat jacke n i shine a big torch (we only have big ones) on the fella, to make it clearer wat it looked like. jacke didn't approve of this, "wat if he remembers where we stay n come back for us?" well, true.. but i didn't think it was likely. jacke called the police again, as they never arrived, when the guy walked down the stairs. apparently '999' doesn't work on the house phone, not sure with the mobile (call '000' from mobile). he was explainin wat happened to the police man on the phone, the policeman even asked him to slow down.. haha, it was really 'gan cheong' u know.. not bluffin u guyz... never thought we were so damn 8 to look at watever happened opposite the street.. kekek but we can be really useful witnesses if called to give statements of wat we saw n heard.. ;P so exciting.. keke

then came 4am, when we had to go bathe n prepare. the police had arrived, notifying the owner of the place. guess wat, by 4:45am, they were all gone. the police were gone, the owner was gone. the police didn't even talk to jacke as he went outside to have a look when he put away the garbage into the bin. it was a lil... disappointing.. we thought we would have an adventure or somethin.. keke so much for being a good citizen.. or do u guyz thinkboth of us were just too bitchy to do our own things? hahaa wat we did was right, at least we have notified the police of some suspicious activity. to tell u the truth, ihave alwayas thought of callin the police to make a report.. ever since i started stayin here.. i have wanted to call the police to ask them to shoo away the patrons who sit outside the closed tavern, drinkin n singing at 3am, ppl soundin their honks so loudly n frequently in the middle of the night, etc. keke funny hor? well, at least i fulfilled one of my dreams.. ;P

okay, let's cut the story short n went straight into paintball session. i haven't had much to eat at all the whole mornin, after the dessert in soul mama, st kilda on friday night. then we started goin for briefings n changing into our 'camos', those uniforms which were quite cute (if fitting). i was quite dead already, with no energy, i could barely carry the paint guns. before our group had even gone to battle, i got hit on my left thigh from some other groups paintball gaming. the paintball hit the ground, didn't burst n came right up again to hit me. how unfortunate. guess how big the bruise is now? it's the size of a m'sian 50 cents coin. yes, it's THAT big.. i didn't get shot or hurt in all of those 4 games (8 rounds total). i think this Semoz Paintball is a rip off. we paid so much, but didn't get much in return. imagine we had to all walk in the sun, with the camos n full face masks, n about 5kg guns.. it's enough to kill u, moreover i hadn't had anythin to eat. water wasn't provided, we were gunning a few hours before given a break where we could have some drinks, some PAID drinks.. wanna drink somethin? pay for it! the drinks were expensive, they should have at least provided plain water to quench our thirst. then the paintballs costs $19 per 100 balls. jacke doubts there are even 100 balls in each bags. we don't have the opportunity to count them, u see.. so they could have just conned us. jacke n i spent about $130 on balls alone.. scary.. n the provided lunch was BBQ, which even sucked. the staffs used their hands to put the meat on the bbq pans, it's self-served, they cook the meat, u take n eat. there was plain bread, cold pre-cooked pasta which only tasted like green pepper, n meat. meat including sausages, beef patty, n beef slices. dat was all.. how filling.. it was a rip-off, totally, i would say. jacke got a splinter in his right palm, which was removed soon afterwards. i felt dizzy already, i couldn't stand much longer. i was thinkin to myself, am i dizzy becoz there was just this tiny bit of blood on his palm? or was it dat i didn't have enough energy to bring myself to stand? i had to sit down, i was tired, my whole body was aching, i feel dizzy n sleepy, i could doze off just sittin on the floor. maybe i didn't come well-prepared enough, but i would say this is somethin i will never do again, or recommend my dear gfs who are feminine n not athletic.. nuff said..

it's 12:19am sunday mornin, the tavern opposite is playin some middle eastern music with this lady singing.. funny how i have this vision in my mind dat the lady singing has a big curly hair on her head n she's really overweight.. with heavy make up i might add.. adioz, sony is makin too much noise.

Friday, November 19, 2004


so handsome, so innocent.. green is so his colour, so is mine.. ;) Posted by Hello

cutey Spencer, Jacke was holdin him. Posted by Hello

Sony when i just bought him.. aged about 2 months old. Posted by Hello

stupid ppl + good food~

okay, stupid ppl n good food have nothin in common. at least in my stories..
1st of all, we have the stupid ppl story.. person, to be exact. some of u may know, dat i stay with 2 other guyz, one my bf jacke, n the other is ronald. ronald is the guy who came down to perth with my darlin. they do share a lot of things in common, i.e. same surname (Chan), same birthdays (1st September), both left-handers, they're takin the same course n they both love good food. but dat's about all. the thing they have least in common is their intelligence. jacke is a smarty n ronald has ZERO IQ. it's not like jacke has good grades n all, but he knows how to take care of himself, me, the house and everythin else dat he needs to. he's street smart, knows how to socialize properly n is well liked by many of those i know, my sis Mq, good fren Eric, to name a few. he tries to talk to ppl he meets, to get more frenz, to have fun. ronald, on the other hand, is quite a dimwit. he doesn't take care of himself properly (he has quite serious eczema throughout the yrs dat never seemed to heal), he is overconfident with himself at times (which we think he'll NEVER pass his drivin test the 1st time, even tho he says he will), has no interactive skills with other ppl (he has met a lot of my frenz many times which he didn't attempt to talk to at all), he's such a bore (imagine we're havin a BBQ party at home, n half-way thru he's up in his room sleepin with his head on his table), and he has no common sense! who on earth, in their right minds, would leave expired milk IN the bottle and on the floor waitin to be dumped?? it's not about the dumping part, it's about the MILK part.. when the milk is expired, wouldn't it be just common sense to empty the bottle FIRST before puttin the bottle aside waitin for garbage day?? fyi, we put our garbage aside the kitchen, n wait for tuesday nights before we dump everythin out. he just pisses me off!! n everytime when i separate the garbage into recyclables, (i.e. plastic wares, tin cans); and degradable food, (i.e. left-over food, waste n others) into rubbish bags, as we have a big bin to put the garbage and a recycle box to put recyclables, he would just put EVERYTHING into the big bin! which again, pisses me off big time! if i hadn't looked at the rubbish to make sure it's full n all the rubbish is out, i wouldn't have known! i mean, it's plain stupid. wat the he** for would i separate the garbage in the 1st place? n i dunno for how many times i've strongly made a statement n requested dat all plastic ware n tins are to be put in a separate bag, which are just beside the big black bag, the plastics always ended up in the black bag. there are a lot of ronald-pissed-me-off stories accumulated since the time i met him in perth, which i don't think i should tell it out at one go. when i do have the time n heart to blurt them out, i will. n i promise u guyz there would be too much for u guyz to swallow. well, for last part which i'm gonna tell u for today, would be the time when i raised my voice towards him about the 'milk incident' yesterday, in front of my sis n bro n jacke. jacke, my bro n i were playin big2 in the livin room, while my sis was watchin us, drinkin her beer. ronald came down from upstairs to see wat we're doin. he stood behind me n jacke, leaning on the pool table, with a hand on his chin. i asked him about my 2 out of 3 missing beers, n he said he drank it. i did tell him dat if he wants to drink, have it. but there were only 3 stubbies, and in less than 24 hours where he rejected jacke's beer offer, he finished 2. who would have a face thick enough to have the 2nd beer without tellin the owner, i.e. ME about it? ronald chan, dat's who! he told me, "we were havin fried dumplings mar..", n dat gave him the reason to finish 2 of my beers?? i don't think so, i was so pissed, then i asked him about the milk. he tells me, "becoz the milk expired already lor.." i then told him, "so? don't u know u're supposed to empty the bottle 1st thing after u put it out of the fridge??" it's common sense.." n there goes.. he gave me this 'uhm, okay, i'll do it the next time' look, n i straight away raised my voice louder "then y r u still standing here?!!??" ronald then slowly went over the the side of the fridge to empty the bottle, then went upstairs again to do watever he does.

jacke just told me, right when i finished dat last paragraph. remember the fried dumplings incident where ronald rejected the beer jacke offered him?? jacke just told me dat was the LAST bottle in the fridge!! means he had already finished 2 bottles in his room! oh my god, have u ever seen anyone so THICK-FACED in ur life?? i can tell u, i don't recall disliking a person so much in my entire life before, EVER!!! he just has no brains at all, totally! durin lunch today, he just asked me wat is the difference between nasi lemak kelantan n nasi lemak kerabu. we were standin right infront of the menu, which details wat ingredients were used in the nasi lemaks. wat kind of a question is dat??? then when we sat down, he asked me wat mamak mee goreng was.. wah lao!! i tell u.. my arteries are bursting soon! i already showed face to him, givin him the look dat i don't intend to talk to him, yet he still doesn't understand. sigh, y am i stayin with such a person??? yesterday night, i told jacke, the next time we move, we're not stayin together with ronald anymore, if jacke wants to stay with ronald, be my guest, but don't expect me to stay with him together. i can't stop repeating myself the whole night, I HATE STUPID PPL!!!

i should stop about stupid ppl, since i'm goin to bed soon, i wouldn't wanna be too hyped up about it (altho i already am) n not go to sleep. let's talk about the good food.

i had dinner with jacke, eric n Mq today. we were at barbarinos+wong on 474 St Kilda Road for dinner. this place has the best pork ribs n fried rice i've ever tasted. the ribs are definitely better than TGI fridays, n the fried rice is absolute heaven.. altho the price is killing, but it's worth the meal once in a while when u wanna treat urself. it's best to go to dat place for meeting up with frenz, over good food, n a huge selection of wines n beers, n to relax. it's the type of place where u can talk n laugh with ur frenz loudly, especially during weekends (they're packed!). they give u tissue bibs to wear when u order their grilled stuff like chicken wings, ribs n others, which are absolutely cute if u do wear it. fyi, bibs are those things where babies wear over their necks when they eat, to prevent their clothes from getting dirty. it's a really good place to eat, really.. those of u visiting melbourne should try this restaurant.

then comes dessert time, we drove down southward to st. kilda beach. there's a vegetarian restaurant near the shore called Soul Mama in the same building as the St Kilda Seabaths (10-18 Jacka Boulevard, St Kilda). i haven't tried the food in soul mama yet, but the desserts are fabulously delicious. the desserts menu always changes, there's only one permanent dessert in the restaurant, which is the espresso pot. we had one of the espresso pot n a sticky date pudding together with soy cream. they were very very good.. the espresso pot is a thick coffee-tasted cream which is full of texture n rich in taste. combined with the soy cream, which softens the coffee taste, voila! the perfect combo. the sticky date pudding is actually cake-like, with some liquer sauce on top, which i forgot wat it was. it's sweet to the mouth n smells like.. uhm.. thinkin about it now only brings me back to soul mama, with dat taste in my mouth... delicious~ thanks to april (albert's gf) who brought us to this place. oh oh oh, i haven't told u guyz about the atmosphere yet. they have proper tables n chairs for dinner, futons n lounges for relaxing n dessert. it's very very comfortable. right at the end of the restaurant, there are big glass windows all over, where u could see the beach.. it's right beside the beach, an empty beach, i might add. pure enjoyment, supreme ecstacy! for those of u who loves the beach, try to come to this place on a weekday, when u can get the window table, n enjoy the scenes outside n still feel warm inside the restaurant. it's very sensual, i'd say.. i'll definitely come to this place again, since i have super sweet tEEth n i'm a dessert addict.

i'll be back in KL on the 6th of december, guyz.. who would still be in KL then? i know lu n min hui would be, kai ler? let's organize a meet up.. kai, good luck in ur exams yeah.. same goes to koon..

shucks, i've gotta wake up 4am in the mornin n the RSL (it's like a club to be booked for functions) opposite my place is still playin oldies dat i've never heard. how to sleep? they never play songs dat i know.. n i would say i've heard a lot of old songs, since my dad's always listenin to them, n jacke likes them a lot too. i won't hope dat they close earlier, coz i know they won't. plz help me go to bed.. @_@

Thursday, November 18, 2004

all is done

all is done.. jac isn't movin in anymore. apparently i think it's mostly excuses that she's givin me n frankly, i don't give a damn anymore. of course i am still frenz with her, plannin to get her somethin for her birthday on the 3rd dec.. wat the heck, u may think. she is my fren for 2 yrs already, n i have always loved her as a fren, as a buddy to go out with, to tell her some of my secrets.. it is fate, i believe dat we can stay together. but we'll see how the frenship goes. becoz of this, i won't be able to have a trip to sydney, maybe not even HK. jacke won't be able to get his bodykit n everyone's gonna suffer. except u, jac.. i really cannot believe dat u would go to such an extent to not fulfil ur promise... fine, i'll manage. so will everyone.

as for my troubled fren with relationship problems..
plz remember dat u deserve to be loved, to be respected, to be happy. if he has no respect for u, there is no love. never ever trust a person who has no respect for u, becoz he will not trust u either. i believe u already know this, as he has shown u lots of dis-trust. put in front of u, wat is important in life, for urself, n not anyone else. who will be affected if ur results are not good? it will be urself. who would care if u're unhappy? urself, n those who love u, like ur family n frenz. ask urself, from the bottom of ur heart, is it worth it? is it worth the trouble n the never-ending heartache he has brought to u? imagine u stayed with him, n bad things like wat it has happened now happened in the future. do u think u would be happy? would u not regret? if the answer is no, then it's not worth it at all. u shouldn't allow urself to be taken advantage of, after all, would he allow u to take advantage of him?

u're a piscean, i'm a piscean too. i know we're very sentimental, n very willing to sacrifice for other's happiness. but we have to stand up for urselves, n not let others bully us. we deserve to be happy, ALL THE TIME. remember dat, don't let urself be unhappy. get rid of the source to all ur problems, FAST.. u know we all support u n love u, for who u are.. becoz u are worth loving n worth our support, unlike ppl who have no manners n no respect for others.

YOU DESERVE TO BE HAPPY (this is also dedicated to everyone else who reads the blog)


Monday, November 15, 2004

depressed n distressed

thanx lu, for the chat early mornin, losin both of our much needed beauty sleep, luv u lotz.

it's holiday season, yet i have a lot in my mind.. couldn't figure out what the best solution is. the 2 utmost important things on my mind are property renting and my pet dogs.

on property renting, a fren of mine has disappointed me, thoroughly..
u don't keep ur words, u never ask the right questions, u're not sensitive enough to understand our position n it's just so unfair to me, jacke n ronald. don't u remember y we really moved in here in the 1st place? we liked the place, u liked the place too. n then u gave us ur word, dat u were gonna take over ping's room after he leaves. y come n tell me now dat u're unsure about it? y bring so much trouble to us? y break a promise?
i've tried to come out with the proportion of rents in such a way dat would benefit u, while jacke n i pay a lil more, n yet u could still ask me to reduce ur rent by $10 a month. wat kind of reasoning is dat? we have so much better facilities here, much newer place with all the restaurants, public transport n utilities available. so much better than the place u're at now, yet u think payin a mere $20 extra a month is too much?
i thought u were my fren, someone i could trust. yet in this tight situation u betrayed my trust. there are a lot of things dat u needed to ask me but didn't, makin ur own decisions without consulting my permission. it's not right, u know. not right at all, u don't have dat power to make dat decision.
this is not a hotel where u can come in n out as u like, lease or not lease as u like. u have made me a promise, n i would have been very happy if u were to keep it. but now, the trust is gone, would i still be able to let u into my place? would i still be able to face u night n day? do u know how much sacrifice i had to make in order to make u comfortable? knowin u would be alone in melbourne for ur birthday, i extended my stay here to celebrate ur 22nd bday with u. i didn't want u to be alone, although i'm not even sure if u have made plans for dat day.. i just decided to stay a lil longer, so dat if there isn't anyone to celebrate ur bday with u, i would still be here. not lettin u feel abandoned n alone.
i am doin my part as a fren, r u? u disappoint me thoroughly, n i'm really really sad about it.. the look i saw on ur face outside chinabar was disturbing. u didn't even try to talk to me when we have so much things unsaid.. lookin as blur as u always do, i am 100% sure dat u're not mature enough to fully understand the situation. i am confident enough to say dat i have more responsibilities than u, n dat now i know how much more i know u thru this experience. if u still think dat i'm worth the trouble, please let me know.. plz make an effort to reconcile this broken trust.. for the wound left untouched would be harder to heal in future.

i would say, dear friends, please don't take me for granted. i do not like being pushed around, or being thought as a person who could be used to bring joy to oneself n detriment to myself. i will stand strong to my stance, n fight for my rights. do not take ur friendship with me lightly, becoz friendships are sacred to me, n not somethin i would compromise on. plz cherish watever we have together, n build our friendship stronger.. don't waste my time on insincere friendship, if u don't think u're worth it, don't bother..

now on to my dogs - sony n spencer.. Mq has decided not to want spencer as her companion anymore, leavin him with me at the moment as she's havin her exams. i'm hoping to keep sony, but i couldn't bear to see sony n spencer separated. it would be cruel to separate both of them, since they're blood brothers n each other's only dog fren. but i couldn't keep spencer, he makes too much noise. he whines too much.. putting them together is like hell let loose. they would wreck the whole place up, wrestling with each other for entertainment dat jacke nor i could stand. do u know how much knocking around they do all day? there's so lil peace n quiet in the room, i could only keep them in the toilet.
i know it may sound cruel, but dat's all i can do for now. still thinkin wat to do with spencer, although my decision to keep sony will ultimately depend on wat i think the best situation would be. i love sony too much, i've cried so much today becoz of the thought of givin him away. y would i name him sony in the 1st place? HE IS MY SON, dat's y.. i am a parent to sony, how can i give my son away? can u guyz understand my agony? the pain i'm sufferin now knowin dat i might give my son away.. it's like a death in the family. i will never ever see him again.. thinkin all these made me wanna keep him. but.. how about spencer? wat will happen to him? his fate awaits..
now everytime i see sony, when he comes to me for a hug, i know dat there is love.. he is longing for me to love him.. this is somethin i don't feel with spencer. maybe becoz he isn't mine.. he comes to me for attention. he wants to play.. but sony comes to me, to sit with me, to be with me. he enjoys my companionship. he wants my love.. how often do u feel dat in ur pet? how often does dat happen? i don't even feel it with my other dogs in kl, sabrina n sonji.. have i fallen too deep to get out? should i even get out? everytime i think of them, my heart sours.. badly.. help.....................

there were some things dat i was happy about today.. somethin to cheer me up upon..
jacke, ronald, Mq, Wz had dinner together at a singaporean bbq restaurant. i was happy dat i was able to contain my anger, my feelings n present a more calm side of myself towards my dinner mates. i was glad dat i was able to handle myself nicely n not cry or show my frustration. i had a good discussion with my sis n bro.. somethin which i've never really experienced before. all of us contributed towards the discussion, with Wz givin some good suggestions n Mq givin good feedback. it was uplifting.. it truly is.. even tho the topic of our discussion was on the dogs, it was happy for me.. at least for once the 3 of us were on the same level, thinkin as equals..

another happy moment for me was when jacke n i were in the car, drivin towards the petrol station, jacke told me dat no matter wat happens, he will always be there for me. in this very realistic world, only i am most trustworthy to him, n dat he will also be the most trustworthy to me. when the world falls, he will be there for me... how touching.. how so sweet of my darlin to say these things during such dark days. thankyou very much darlin, i will be ur rock always..

i will post up pictures of sony n spencer, hopefully soon.. plz be patient. oh, btw, just for the stats, sony weighs 4kg n spencer weighs 7kg now.. spencer eats everythin, most of the time sony only eats when u watch him eat. spencer will gladly finish up sony's food any time, so i have to always separate both of them away when spencer finishes his meal, but keepin spencer in sony's site. for if spencer starts whining, sony will not eat.. troublesome eh? bo pian, i do this everyday even during exam period...

Happy Belated 18th Birthday, Wei Zhi
i love u very much..
plz take good care of urself..

Thursday, November 11, 2004

TGI experience

it was my 1st TGI Friday experience, down at the trendy Chapel Street in Melbourne. i know, many of u may have tonnes of experiences at TGI fridays, but it's my 1st, okay? jacke n i chose a spot inside the restaurant that was lookin out to the streets, where loads of ppl were walkin by, even on a wednesday afternoon. havin flippin thru the somewhat complicated menu, we decided to have a baby pork ribs together with a half roasted chicken, which looked extremely good on picture. i had a grapefruit blast while jacke ordered the normal iced peach tea. i've chosen the grapefruit blast as i've come across many advertisements about losing weight by incorporating the orange-looking (yuck!) fruit into the foods that we eat. the drinks came, n the grapefruit blast was quite awful. i wouldn't have gulped it down if it weren't for the ads, n the $3.95 that i had to pay for it. jacke was shakin his head already, indicatin dat i should always stick to reliable drinks to save myself from the sufferin of my dear tongue n purse.

the food came, n we happily cut them into bite-sized pieces to feed each other. the ribs were good, even better eaten with the apple somethin sauce that came with it. the roasted chicken was good too, juicy n tender with lots of spices. it wasn't until i was a quarter way thru the chicken dat i found out it wasn't as cooked as it should be, n decided to tell the waitress to have her cook it for me. i wouldn't wanna have a tummy ache or some illness, my perception towards eating raw chicken is bad n it makes me wanna puke. next, we told the waitress about the chicken n she took the plate away, tellin us dat she'll do somethin about it. when we were almost thru with the ribs, the supervisor came with the chicken, a NEW piece of chicken. wow, i thought the service was good enough, considerin dat i haven't had good food PLUS good service for a long long time. *chomp chomp chomp* then there it was again, the UNcooked chicken. this time it seemed even worse than the 1st one. hahaha, i didn't have much more place for anythin else in my tummy anyway, so i stopped eating.

it was a good experience, even though the chicken wasn't cooked. we paid about $40+ for the meal, which was.. expensive, of course. normally we would spend about $7-$8 for a chinese meal, with roasted duck n all, but we've had those too much. there's this restaurant outside our place called '德记' that has really good roasted duck (烧鸭) and '油鸡'. the tauke drives a really really cool black, 2 seater mercedes-benz, n the crab with noodles dish '肉蟹炒面底' is fabulous. the downside of it is that all the waiters n waitress have attitude problems, they only work especially harder when the lady boss is around, n they have bugs in their soups. haha not the big bugs, super small ones.. like those in dry veges dat aren't washed before they're cooked.

spencer has come to stay with us, as Mq couldn't take it much longer. spencer has been chewing Mq's shoes, books, pens n pencils, everythin. he has spoilt about 8 to 9 pairs of shoes, a few of Mq's files, some book covers, a whole lot of pens n pencils (a partial of the leads of pencils were unfortunately eaten), Mq's photo album cover.. oh, her sofa bed, n the carpet. yup, dat's right, he has such destructive capability dat Mq couldn't handle it any longer. her exams were comin up, i had to rescue her.. ;P it was sad, actually. oh, Mq could have tied spencer up, no doubt, but he chewed the leash into bits n pieces.. i had no choice but to bring him here, to give my dear sis a lil peace n quiet.

Monday, November 08, 2004

all over with sem 2/2004!

i've finished my exams, yay!! not exactly a very happy thing, considering i could've done better with a little more time. took my employment law paper with just less than 1.5 hours of sleep the night before, my right arm ached durin exam! well, everyone in the right position would too.. sigh, i hope i've done enough. i'm glad that it's all over.. ;)

spring is so wet this year, it's nothin but rain everyday, with the occassional hail. the tulips that i planted early last season didn't grow too well. they didn't grow up straight, maybe i should tie them up to a pole or stick or somethin. they did bloom though, but i only saw the flowers when they were fully bloomed.. i had one white tulip plant n one yellow one, n they're in a plastic blue pot which i bought from Bunnings. sony was digging his nose into my tulip pot, god knows who brought them into the house, they were outside before. sony digged a couple of times, then i went to see what was it all about. i think i stayed there for too long, squated for about half a minute.. n i saw green little bugs the size of one tenth of a grain of uncooked rice, each! oh god, they were disgusting.. there must be like.. 30 of them, sittin on the leaves. i was havin dinner, which i decided not to finish as i didn't have the appetite to eat; n then i saw those bugs.. yucks.. they were clean lookin n all, but i just didn't feel very right. not enough sleep, plus not too much food, then plus a little too much food at a time (i had mooncake, lotus paste with double yolk), lost appetite, then the bugs.. i had to drink more water to make sure i didn't have anythin in my mouth, n get those rice swallowed all the way down to my stomach. sony is gonna bathe soon, coz i don't want any of those bugs on him.

about a few hours ago, i was on kai's blog, n i clicked on her link to 'the grudge'.. before i tell u guyz wat happened, i have to inform u a lil bit of my recent history with ghost/scary movies. the most ghastly movie i've watched recently, was perhaps Van Helsing. hahaha, i know.. i wanna laugh too.. i have somehow stopped watchin movies that are too scary, such as Ju-On, or watever. a few times when i had the chance to watch these movies, i was playin mah jong, so forgive me for being a scaredy cat. okay, so Van Helsing was the scariest movie i've watched lately, and i clicked on the 'the grudge' link. being ignorant to all the names of the scary movies, i can only assume that 'the grudge' was a name of one of those movies. i simply typed in a name n initial, which read 'DTF T' and proceeded. my eyes were half closed all the way, afraid dat somethin or someone might just jump out of no where n i had no one to hug. i wanted to carry sony on my lap, so i could use him as a cover n make him watch the thing with me. chicken, heh? i think so too. okay, the welcome note was received, n i clicked on the right path, to the kitchen. i was lookin at the right side thru a round window to the door, n listening to this really spooky music. guess wat happened next? i closed the browser.. yes, i did. i chickened out n closed the browser. hahaha u guyz must laugh at me right now, but i really don't wanna make myself scared. so that's it, my encounter with kai's spooky page. ahha plz tell me wat happens in the house yeah, so i won't have to go over it n find out for myself. ur efforts are very much appreciated. keke

uhm, tmr is tuesday, wat shall i do? since i have all the time in the world. keke oh yeah.. min hui, if u're readin this.. are u plannin to celebrate ur birthday with us this year? =P or somethin? well, i dunno, just askin. so wat are everybody's plans for the end of the year? i know i will be goin to singapore a few times from december to jan or feb. to visit my darlin mar.. hahaha i'm attendin my cousin Hong Juei's weddin durin feb, n she's asked me to go shoppin with her, for her weddin clothes! not the gown, she's gotten the gown already, but maybe the dinner dress or somethin.

ah, sony is cryin.. can't think of anythin to write liao.. plus my darlin wanna use his laptop, then munchin on his chips at the back.. original pringles with 33% less fat*. notice there's a '*' sign, it's 33% less fat 'than the Regular pringles'. gosh, can't be bothered.. tc u guyz, ciaoz

Wednesday, November 03, 2004

confusion sets in..

i am utterly confused.. have tonnes to study but dunno wat i'm doin. i just wrote an email to my parents, tellin them how much i missed them, how much i needed some money to pay up commitments before goin back to KL and how much pain in the arse my brother is causin me. my poor darlin is sick, but happy that he's got his CPL theory all done! CPL = commercial pilot license. yes, my bf is a pilot, a student pilot, actually. he's super adorable, makes funny noises n faces n loves to joke around. haha love him to the max~ i really want u guyz, all of u who are close to me to know him, n to take him as part of 'us'. 'us' as in our frenship. really lookin forward for him to be in KL n meet my frenz. he's from singapore u see, n we've been together for.. close to 10 months. goin 1 year on my dad's b'day - 11th december~ hooray for Mz n Jacke! it's pronounced Jacky by the way. i suppose those of u who have known me long enough would have seen jacke's photos on friendster, hi5 or webshots. oh, n regarding the confusion topic, there's no confusion about the love i have for jacke. it's ABSOLUTE.. haha

confusion can be equalled to laziness, i think. coz the reason y i'm confused is becoz i'm not spending enough time to think and act about things i have in my pee brain mind. not hardworking enough to sort things out. confused as things are left around too long, dat all my muscles are experiencing the lag effect. but beware, as lagging ---> not studying ---> gettin bad grades ---> regretting ---> useless.. regretting is a totally useless thing to do, so even when i'm not gettin the grades i hoped for, i don't regret, i know it's my fault, yet i don't work at it. how stupid can that be? nothin can get more stupid than this, i tell u.. YET, i'm still here.. dedicating precious time to the blog, hoping my frenz would read them n know dat i have put in effort to let them know wat is happening in my life..

another thought: sex n the city..
in the last season, SJP or rather, Carrie Bradshaw is moving to paris with her russian lover. all for love, as he offers her life, even when her frenz do not support the idea, n personally i didn't like how he treated her. a little resemblence to my situation, not the 'frenz don't like him' part. jacke is singaporean, n i'm malaysian, he wants to stay in australia (initially) and won't stay in singapore. he wants to pursue a career in australia, n will be studyin here for another few more years. i'm finishin next yr n still deciding whether to go back to KL. recently, just a few days ago.. he told me he would live in malaysia, for my sake.. seriously, i was very touched. being the man chauvanist pig as he is (did i spell the word correctly, btw?), he had given a thought about stayin in malaysia for the long term, n decided it might be the best place to be after all. considering that he hates malays who are lazy n takes their status for granted (no offence to those who are hardworkin n all), and that he doesn't speak the malay language, he would stay with me in KL. we think it's a great place to start a family n raise children. will list the pros n cons we've thought about another time. i love him so much, n i'm really very touched about dat matter.

alright, i should leave now. thanx to everyone who has sent their regards n good lucks.. all the best to all of u too.. muakz muakz..

Monday, November 01, 2004

first paper down!

exam has finally started, not dat i've been anticipating it.. but to tell u guyz the truth, i only found out how to study the subject yesterday night, when i was gonna go to bed.. i only realised dat i have to go through my lecture notes 1st, then go over the lecture guides, then go over the study guide, and all along i would need my text book to guide me thru.. haha,, it means everythin. it's a good thing i didn't bother to go thru the readings, i would have died! i really would. haha, 4 out of 9 questions, topic 2,3,4,5,6,7,9, and 10. gotcha! well, dat's over with Change Management, here comes Financial Accounting Theory and Practice.. sigh.. this is my last accounting paper, and to think dat i've failed this subject before and retaking it now, sheesh.. wat a thought.

okay, since i'm here, let's me tell u guyz the situation with my studies. won't be nice, so plz refrain urself from the 'oohs' and 'aahs'.. after this semester, which is sem2 of 2004, if i were to pass all 3 subjects, i would still have 2 subjects left, namely Principles of Income Tax Law and another law subject which i haven't really decided which one to take yet. my student visa is expiring march next yr, means i would have to renew it end of this semester, preferably in november or december. a new visa would cost about AUD410, and i would also need a medical checkup done and would have to pay 30% of fees for the new semester. now, payin 30% so soon, isn't too much of a problem, my main concern is, as it would be a new contract, i would be on new terms. this new term i'm talkin about is the increase of fees per subject.. from $1,375 to $1,875, a staggering $500 increase.. which brings us to about RM1,421.9966 (thx to www.iccfx.com).. PER SUBJECT! i'll be spending so much more per subject basis, gosh.. it's so bad, isn't it? sometimes u really wanna stab urself on the back, well, this is a good time.. haha well, it's bad, i know.. but i can't do too much now except to pass all my subjects.. isn't it? well, i just thought i'd share this with u guyz, to anyone who needed to learn about this. learn from my mistake, save ur parents money from goin out of the m'sian economy and into the australian, will ya?keke

am talkin to a nice fren of jacke's on msn right now.. her name is cindy.. i heard she's gonna get married to her long term bf, kenneth.. she's a very nice n pretty girl, met her when i was down at singapore earlier this yr. let's see if i can upload her picture here.. then it would be really nice. met a lot of nice people, nice frenz of jacke's. haha, would really like to keep in contact with thm, maybe generate good frenships with them. Lena, Cecilia, Krist, Cindy, all very down to earth, frenly n nice. of course all of u guyz here are extremely good to me too.. hehe uhm, can't seem to upload the pictures.. oh well.. would like to catch up with u guyz soon, lu, kai, min hui..uhm, mizz u guyz.....