Emotional flood

My emotional being is at its low again, tonnes of thoughts are weighin me down, it seems so hard to pull myself up. I have been thinking a lot lately, maybe because I'm slackin in job hunting again. There are so much to think about, that being alone at home at times or being poor wouldn't help at all.

This is what I have been doin for the past few days:
1. Play Fish Tycoon from Reflexive, currently I have discovered 99 out of the supposed 400 species and in that have 5 magic fishes out of 7. The game keeps me occupied, I can stare at my tanks for a long time without doin anythin else. The magic isn't workin so much anymore, need other things to do.

2. Read Joey's fan fiction as the story still progresses. I must say that it's quite a chick lit. Very entertaining and very very nice to read. Learning up about the group in the story - DBSK has been quite fun, it keeps my mind from running amok. I'm droolin over Hero Kim JaeJoong from DBSK currently. He's got really powerful eyes, a good voice, and very very very cute. Remember my desktop post where I didn't put anythin up? Now I do, n it's JaeJoong's picture.

Dunno if Joey wants her fanfic to be advertised here, but they're up at this site. Lookin at JaeJoong's picture, I think I'd rather be obsessed with his looks than to be thinkin of my own problems. Sigh, I'm a runner.

3. My brother is in Melbourne! Me, my sis n him had dim sum in Sharks Fin House in the city yesterday, it was good to see him again. It's been.. wat.. since December that I last saw him. Mq says Wz's face sharpened, that he lost weight again. To me, I dunno, my bro has jz been so skinny all his life, I wonder if he has received any of the "Fat" genes. Wz also asked us if we thought his nose got a little shappier. Yes, his nose, and No, he did not get any surgery or whatsoever that is fake. His nose just.. sharpened up, jz like his face. It's impossible that losing weight would mean your nose would change it's shape (albeit slightly) but I know my bro's no Pinochio. Wz wants to keep his hair long, but I think he desperately needs a haircut, keepin ur hair long doesn't mean you don't need a trim. I wanna psycho Wz to cut n style his hair like JaeJoong's. :P Wz's hair length is about slightly longer than JaeJoong's hair in the pic I posted on top. See? I get so happy talkin about JJ, n of course my family too.

4. It's kinda gettin lonelier here in Melbourne.. With Albert, Eric Ping and Cara gone, there's really not many others that I'm close with. I mean, keep my family aside, there's only maybe Min Hui and Lee Inn left. Min Hui's goin back early December, Lee Inn's always busy workin. Oh, Linda's also goin back 1st December.. April.. I can still ask her out for lunch, but I'm not sure if she's busy. There's just no more other people that I can call out for lunch anymore. Alex the China man has agreed to stay with us, taking over Cara's room, but only in February. He's been around the house quite a lot of late, studyin n foolin around with Jacke and Ronald. So hopefully I can get more friends around here, a bit doubtful, since I'm not studyin or workin.

5. Job hunting has been slow, a lot of vacancies are comin up for undergraduates, one day per week. I'm not qualified of course, and even vacancies for fresh graduates require 1 or 2 yrs of working experience, which I don't have. Sigh, sigh and more sigh. I'm still working on some cover letters, hopefully will send my resumes out again in a few more days.

6. Out of loneliness, I called Charlotte early this mornin n talked to her for almost 4 hours. It felt great, to be chattin to her again. Afterall, I don't spend much on international calls, but when I do, it'll be a lot in one shot. Joey called me this.. evening actually. She woke me up, hehe. I only went to sleep at about 7+ this morning after the phone conversation with Charlotte, and woke up to Joey's call around 4+pm. Crazy time, I know. Talkin to Joey further brought me away from my sorrows, which was good. We only talked for about half an hour or so, then she had to go eat. JOEY, TAKE CARE OF YOUR GASTRIC PROBLEM AR, PLEASE.

7. Sweets, I've finished my packet of Starburst Jelly Beans. At least the colours that I like. There are only the orange and green ones left. Orange and I think, lime flavour. Ewh.. Don't like them. Have also bought myself a small box of GuyLian Belgian Praline Chocolates. It's only a box of 3, you know how big a GuyLian choc is. it's about a Malaysian 50 cent coin. Had 1 and a half yesterday, now finishin the other half. I'll leave the last one for tonight or somethin.. I think I'll die without sweets.

Finally, Jacke's last paper will end at 12noon tmr. Then I can somehow stop worryin about him not studyin. It's not that he doesn't study, I just don't see him study enough. I have to keep myself in the room when the boys study at the dining hall, ocassionally come out to quiet them or ask them to study n everythin. His exams, I stress.. Sigh.. But it'll all be over tmr. So he can start planning his flights on the weekend, Linda's younger sisters Venice and Amy plus their cousin Cindy wanted to fly around the city with Jacke before they all head back to KL. So because 1 plane can only take 4 people (1 pilot + 3 passengers) at a time, Jacke's doin 2 rounds, one with Venice, Amy and Cindy, another round with Linda, Yoon and me. Hopefully the weather will permit, Sat weather with a top of 21, Sun weather top of 28 degrees.

Sigh, what to eat for dinner? Dinner last night at Jade's is quite good, I love Jade. It's my default restaurant... Default default.. Dunno where to go? Jade. Feel like comfort food? Jade. Wanna watch HK TVB? Jade. haha, Jade's tauke aunty likes talkin to us too, and she kept commenting how thin I was. I reckon she's slimmer, she's a lil taller but we're about the same weight. Funny how an aunty compares her weight and build with me. Hehe, she's still thinner okay. Jade is a HK-style cafe restaurant. Very much like Kimgary or Mongkok restaurant in KL, but not as commercialised. They still have cheesebaked rice and everythin, but I'd prefer the Portugese-style baked chicken spaghetti. That's what I had yesterday night. At least the rice they cook here is softer and more moist than Kimgary's. I'd take Jade anytime over Kimgary.

Okay, cukup.. enough. My total intake of only half a piece of chocolate since 12am this mornin is not makin me hungry, just yet. But I don't wanna continue whining, so.. bye.